Geeks Like Us

Is it really?  Bleah, this week is just crawling by.  I had a really nice day yesterday.  I had a friend come over and we played around with my sewing machine.  Get ready for this lol I made two mama pads. I’d post pictures but they are kind of lame looking, being my first ones.  If the next go well then I’ll share those.  I figure it doesnt matter to much since after all no one else will ever see them.

I also showed my friend how to get started with digital scrapbooking.  I think she’ll enjoy it.  She loves doing paper crafting so its just sort of another extention of that.

I got to play with her little guy, he’s such a cutie pie.  Gets the baby fever all fired up though.  There will be none of that though, atleast for another year or two.  Which kind of makes me sad. There are two things we need before we can plan it and neither of those look like they will happen anytime soon.  I had really hoped to plan on trying for #3 when V turned 2 and well, thats just 10 days away. 

I’m still thinking about what to do about going to Michigan.  I just don’t know what to do about it.  In my heart I so want to go, I long to. But we really are growing out of this 2 bedroom apartment and there is no way we can move into a house with both of our credits looking they way they do.  Plus with no down payment, I doubt we’d be able to afford anything anyways.

This Friday we’re celebrating Mike’s birthday with his family since his birthday is this coming Sunday.  I think we may splurge alittle and go see Dark Knight.  Either Friday night or early Saturday morning.  Either way the girls are staying with his parents that night so we’ll have to see.

Well I think I’ll finish this since I started it at like 10am and now its 1:18 pm and I’m just now finishing it.

It would figure that the second I plan an outdoor party, it would rain for a week straight.  I wish I was joking.  Its been gray everyday since the invites were sent.  I looked outside just now and its actually sheets of rain.  GRRRR  Granted V’s party isnt until August 2nd but oh Lord PLEASE don’t let it rain that day!  Or the day before that, so the park will be sort of dry.

Grant me this one prayer God and I’ll give up chocolate for 3 months!!

LOL Or I’ve finally really flipped my lid. I’ve decided to start potty training V. She’s done pretty well today.  She’ll run to the potty, and sit willingly, but still hasn’t gone in it, but neither did M the first day.  We’ll see how it goes.

*update*

She asked for a diaper, I gave in.  We’ll try again tomorrow or next week.  I’m not going to give up.

I realize I’ve been a big downer in my last posts.  So… I decided to make a list of the ways I was blessed today.

• The girls were relatively great throughout the whole day, they even went to bed quietly.
• There were several things on sale today that I needed at the store, saving me quite a bit of money.
• I was able to get all my minor cleaning done before it got to late tonight.
• GCI called to let us know our bill was over 900$ because of an error on their end and they needed permission to fix it.

There are many more and these may seem very trivial to some but they really made my day. Saving 4$ on toilet paper was kind of cool too!  lol

Of just about everything lately.  Choices past and choices that should be made. I wish sometimes that life were much easier.  Or that I hadn’t made certain mistakes in my past.

Don’t get me wrong I wouldn’t change having my girls for the world, and I love Mike completely. I just find life such a drag lately.  It seems like we can’t get ahead ever.  It seems whenever something goes wrong everything goes wrong.  I’d love to be ‘in the black’ with our finances for longer than just a few days at a time. I have this gut feeling that our rent will go up soon, which will not be good.

I can’t believe I’m actually debating not going to Michigan in October.  Whats the point?  I’ll go there with the girls and love my time there and I’ll enjoy my family.  But then we’ll have to come back.  And I’ll be depressed for weeks afterward.  Wishing I lived back there (like I do now) but it wont change.  I’ll still live 4,000 miles away from them.  So why go?  If I stay then maybe we can put the money we would spend to go into a savings account and maybe someday, ya know like in the next 10 years or something we may be able to get a house. 

I know its bad all over prices wise, so I hate complaining.  It just seems so much worse here. Gas is 4.60 a gallon here.  Which is seriously driving up the cost of food. I went to buy bananas when we were in the store. 1.19 a lb. Hopefully this week I can hit up our local farmers market (its on Wednesday) and get some fruits and veggies.  We’ll see, most of what we end up eating is canned or frozen because produce is so expensive here.

I’m glad I have here to write, since if I talk to Mike about how I feel it just causes more stress for him, and he already does so much. And no one else I really knows completely understands what we’re going thru right now. So atleast I have an outlet.

We didn’t accomplish anything today.  I want my house empty of the clutter.  Im so sick of eating sitting on the couch. I want to use my table.  Getting Mike to do anything is like if I were trying to pull teeth all on my own.  Such a baby about throwing things out.  And he will find just about anything else to do other than what needs to be done.

We did do grocery shopping… To an extent.  So depressing.  I wont go into detail.  Just not great.

I happened to sell two more bags of baby clothes for 30$ total.  I need to start going thru the 12 month stuff and stream line it down to just one tub.  I think its taken over two or three (although I think there are 2t and such size clothes as well because some of it is M’s old clothes).

I got up this morning and had to strip the girls bed so I went ahead and cleaned up the rest of their room.  How they end up with so many things all over the floor I have on clue!  And I vaccumed the whole apartment. Tomorrow we have a birthday party, but I am hoping to go thru the kitchen and get rid of some of the crap we just dont need.  You know those things in the cabinets that never get dug out … like… ever… Yep I’d like to stream line all of that stuff too.

Just another day in my life pretty much.  Sorry I haven’t been posting, but other than prices going sky high here there isnt much to talk about.  I was hoping for a busy summer out side but because of the gas prices we stay home alot, and since we have no yard… we stay in.

I hope everyone elses weekend is going well.

So M1 is back at home, and my mom is acting as if nothing happened.  Deja Vu!  I just pray that he gets a job soon, and really does do what he says he’s going to do.

I hate knowing my sisters live in fear.  Both M boys need to act their age and stop acting like children.

Well its happened.  My brother M1 got arrested today. He swears up and down that he’s changed, and yet still he acts like a jerk with in a few days of being back with my family.  My brother M2 asked him to help mow the lawn, and he got upset. So M1 caused a huge fight, name calling and being verbally abusive.  Then it turned into a physical fight. Which resulted in M2 calling 911 and the police getting involved.

I feel for my mom I know it can’t be easy to make hard decisions but jeez… Someone needs to.  The police officer thought it would be wise to seperate them for a few days, so he took M1 in and M2 may stay with my brother R and his wife for a few days.  My little sister P is afraid that things wont change when M1 is released. I think she’s right.  There is no way that he has changed and all this will do is fuel his anger towards anyone in authority over him, and towards my family.

It stinks being so far away and not being able to do anything.  My mom didn’t even really want to talk to me. All she kept saying was “Yeah you were right, I was wrong, like always” and then handed the phone over to P who told me what happened.  It sucks to that its my parents 27th anniversary and they are having to deal with this crap.

I wish my brothers would realize they need to start taking responsibility for their own actions.  M1 couldn’t get into the military because of his lack of respect and his anger issues.  Not a great enviornment for my youngers sisters.

I started it last night.  I’m not that thrilled about some of the side effects that I could end up with.  The only people I know personally who are on it, are Mike’s parents.  They are both on it for diabetes.  I’m on it for PCOS.  My dr started me out at 500mg for this week, up it to 1000mg next week, and finally to 1500mg the following week where I’ll stay at unless it really bothers me. 

I’ve had one dose and so far I’m fine.  I’m willing to bet that I wont have any side effects until we get over 1000mg though.

Not really. I get to start metformin. I get to have my levels checked again in a month. I think only testosterone though but I’m not sure.