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Yep, thats right, thats how much our gas is here. Everywhere else is dropping but its on the rise in my neck of the woods. Almost 75 dollars to fill my gas tank. Bleah!!!! I can’t believe how bad its gotten. We haven’t gone and done anything at all this summer because we just can’t afford the gas. Mike has to drive alot for his job so he has to fuel up atleast once a week sometimes more. So I stay in as much as possible so I don’t run thru my gas, and so its available if he needs to run out to the valley.
I so hope that we get the money our governor is trying to get for us.
I find that I absolutely LOVE sneaking in and peeking at the girls while they play dolls in their room. M really can be a good nurturer when she wants to be. She’ll ‘nurse’ her baby doll (recently I’ve spied V mimicking this as well) wrap her doll in a blanket and rock it. So sweet. Yesterday she begged to have a cloth diaper for her baby. So I dug thru my fabric scraps and found some blue sweat shirt type material and sewed one up quick. She’s been in heaven ever since. Says now her baby doll is much happier, her butt too! lol.
Its so fun seeing what they’ve picked up from me. I love seeing them interact this way, gives me such a warm fuzzy feeling, makes everything so worth while. All the nights of no sleep, the dirty dishes stacked to the ceiling because they wont let me put them down, the piles of laundry waiting to be washed, all of it worthwhile in the end.
I love them to pieces.
If you could pray for us it would be greatly appreciated. Our financial situation just gets worse and worse. I’m having a really hard time seeing a silver lining today. What really stinks is knowing that Mike is owe’d a couple grand but theres no way its going to be given to him in one chunk, or even when there will be another payment made on it. Stress….
About my dad. My mom was telling me the other day he has some sort of bump on his back, its getting larger. My parents have no insurance (just can’t afford it) and so he hasn’t been to the doctor. He has severely high blood pressure, to the point that if he even mows the lawn it causes him to burst blood vessels in his eyes sometimes. I hate feeling helpless. I hate not knowing what to do. I told my mom he should go to the doctor but they wont consider it because they can’t afford to. I wish things were easier, and I wish I lived closer. Not that I’d be able to do anything maybe but atleast I’d be close.
Is it really? Bleah, this week is just crawling by. I had a really nice day yesterday. I had a friend come over and we played around with my sewing machine. Get ready for this lol I made two mama pads. I’d post pictures but they are kind of lame looking, being my first ones. If the next go well then I’ll share those. I figure it doesnt matter to much since after all no one else will ever see them.
I also showed my friend how to get started with digital scrapbooking. I think she’ll enjoy it. She loves doing paper crafting so its just sort of another extention of that.
I got to play with her little guy, he’s such a cutie pie. Gets the baby fever all fired up though. There will be none of that though, atleast for another year or two. Which kind of makes me sad. There are two things we need before we can plan it and neither of those look like they will happen anytime soon. I had really hoped to plan on trying for #3 when V turned 2 and well, thats just 10 days away.
I’m still thinking about what to do about going to Michigan. I just don’t know what to do about it. In my heart I so want to go, I long to. But we really are growing out of this 2 bedroom apartment and there is no way we can move into a house with both of our credits looking they way they do. Plus with no down payment, I doubt we’d be able to afford anything anyways.
This Friday we’re celebrating Mike’s birthday with his family since his birthday is this coming Sunday. I think we may splurge alittle and go see Dark Knight. Either Friday night or early Saturday morning. Either way the girls are staying with his parents that night so we’ll have to see.
Well I think I’ll finish this since I started it at like 10am and now its 1:18 pm and I’m just now finishing it.
It would figure that the second I plan an outdoor party, it would rain for a week straight. I wish I was joking. Its been gray everyday since the invites were sent. I looked outside just now and its actually sheets of rain. GRRRR Granted V’s party isnt until August 2nd but oh Lord PLEASE don’t let it rain that day! Or the day before that, so the park will be sort of dry.
Grant me this one prayer God and I’ll give up chocolate for 3 months!!
LOL Or I’ve finally really flipped my lid. I’ve decided to start potty training V. She’s done pretty well today. She’ll run to the potty, and sit willingly, but still hasn’t gone in it, but neither did M the first day. We’ll see how it goes.
*update*
She asked for a diaper, I gave in. We’ll try again tomorrow or next week. I’m not going to give up.
I realize I’ve been a big downer in my last posts. So… I decided to make a list of the ways I was blessed today.
- The girls were relatively great throughout the whole day, they even went to bed quietly.
- There were several things on sale today that I needed at the store, saving me quite a bit of money.
- I was able to get all my minor cleaning done before it got to late tonight.
- GCI called to let us know our bill was over 900$ because of an error on their end and they needed permission to fix it.
There are many more and these may seem very trivial to some but they really made my day. Saving 4$ on toilet paper was kind of cool too! lol
Of just about everything lately. Choices past and choices that should be made. I wish sometimes that life were much easier. Or that I hadn’t made certain mistakes in my past.
Don’t get me wrong I wouldn’t change having my girls for the world, and I love Mike completely. I just find life such a drag lately. It seems like we can’t get ahead ever. It seems whenever something goes wrong everything goes wrong. I’d love to be ‘in the black’ with our finances for longer than just a few days at a time. I have this gut feeling that our rent will go up soon, which will not be good.
I can’t believe I’m actually debating not going to Michigan in October. Whats the point? I’ll go there with the girls and love my time there and I’ll enjoy my family. But then we’ll have to come back. And I’ll be depressed for weeks afterward. Wishing I lived back there (like I do now) but it wont change. I’ll still live 4,000 miles away from them. So why go? If I stay then maybe we can put the money we would spend to go into a savings account and maybe someday, ya know like in the next 10 years or something we may be able to get a house.
I know its bad all over prices wise, so I hate complaining. It just seems so much worse here. Gas is 4.60 a gallon here. Which is seriously driving up the cost of food. I went to buy bananas when we were in the store. 1.19 a lb. Hopefully this week I can hit up our local farmers market (its on Wednesday) and get some fruits and veggies. We’ll see, most of what we end up eating is canned or frozen because produce is so expensive here.
I’m glad I have here to write, since if I talk to Mike about how I feel it just causes more stress for him, and he already does so much. And no one else I really knows completely understands what we’re going thru right now. So atleast I have an outlet.
We didn’t accomplish anything today. I want my house empty of the clutter. Im so sick of eating sitting on the couch. I want to use my table. Getting Mike to do anything is like if I were trying to pull teeth all on my own. Such a baby about throwing things out. And he will find just about anything else to do other than what needs to be done.
We did do grocery shopping… To an extent. So depressing. I wont go into detail. Just not great.
I happened to sell two more bags of baby clothes for 30$ total. I need to start going thru the 12 month stuff and stream line it down to just one tub. I think its taken over two or three (although I think there are 2t and such size clothes as well because some of it is M’s old clothes).
I got up this morning and had to strip the girls bed so I went ahead and cleaned up the rest of their room. How they end up with so many things all over the floor I have on clue! And I vaccumed the whole apartment. Tomorrow we have a birthday party, but I am hoping to go thru the kitchen and get rid of some of the crap we just dont need. You know those things in the cabinets that never get dug out … like… ever… Yep I’d like to stream line all of that stuff too.
Just another day in my life pretty much. Sorry I haven’t been posting, but other than prices going sky high here there isnt much to talk about. I was hoping for a busy summer out side but because of the gas prices we stay home alot, and since we have no yard… we stay in.
I hope everyone elses weekend is going well.
